Right now I am a senior in high school and it is that time in my life where I am starting to get really nervous about my future. I have a pretty clear idea of what I want to do after I graduate from my high school. I would like to be able to go to the bay area for schooling because I really do like it over there and they have the program that I want to be in which makes it even better. I guess my problem is that I am nervous that since this is my last year at a high school that I won't be ready to go off on my own. I am worried that I won't have the focus that I need to get through my next steps in life because I have been noticing that through out my school life I have started to slip out of my good habits that I once had down, like an over all law for my school life. I'm not trying to loose my habits but it seems to me that year after year I am just loosing that way above average drive slowly. So this year I am just worried that I am going to slip up and waste away all the things that I have been working so hard for. Although hopefully since I am writing about my problem I will hopefully be able to stay on track this year and maybe even start to get my good habits back that I have lost over the years.
I am not saying that I have completely gone into the gutter with my grades, but what I am saying is that I believe I have lost a bit of my drive and focus to do the absolute best that I can do. Being a senior I feel that I need to regain that drive and focus otherwise I'm not going to be able to meet all of the goals that I have tried to set for myself and the things that I have strived for. Hopefully when I start to get my groove back I won't have these jitters. I do get that I will have them through out the year because it is my last but I want them to be for good reason and not just because I feel that my drive and focus are slipping away still.
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